Believe. A simple word, so hard to act and live up to 100%.
This time last year I was on my knees. Lost, confused, my old photo business having come to a grinding halt – errr hello, one corporate client supplying all your income regardless of how big or how busy they keep you is just not a good idea. I was floundering, I wasn’t even trying to decide what work I wanted to do or what kind of photographer I wanted to be, the base demands of rent, food and bills were my only focus.
Fast forward a year, I make a living doing what I love, what I’m passionate about. Through the influence of some special people who believed in me when I did not, who showed faith and love; I now believe. I’m growing, unfurling my wings and learning to fly, letting loose ideas no matter how frightening they are, learning the skills to create them.
Beginning to create a body of work that begins to tell who I am and what I want to be as a photographer, planning portfolio shoots to show the work I want to do, and personal shoots to ignite a passion to create something special.
Believe : In what and who you are. Starve, suffer, find yourself, what is deep inside you.
Believe : In creating, in finding something within and taking no excuses from yourself why you cannot do it.
I always get asked “how” I took a shot, not “why”, I think that is strange. The why is far more important and honestly far more interesting.
As I develop and grow, often my ideas that I am now beginning to take are different and not for sale. Why ? – because it allows me to create something, to learn about this craft, try things I don’t know how to do, to live without a net. I am able to meet new and quite frankly awesome people working on these projects, to create together with hair, makeup, models, art directors to have fun together and enjoy the laughs with images at the end we can look at and go “yeah”. Just for us.
Believe : That I can inspire others, to leave their own self imposed limitations in photography or life.
I can still go through rough times where I have pushed hard on work or supporting the community, too much or for too long, giving it my all, plans fall through and in those scary moments late at night I can question my thoughts and beliefs, I can worry about whether more work will come in and if I’m going to make it.
Believe : create, push in a new direction, the calls will come. Follow your own path, your vision, change it, shape it, don’t let anything stand in the way, and others will see and want to call.
As long as I know why I am taking pictures, as long as I believe in myself and have no fears or limitations, as long as I remember that, desire it, dream about it, work for it, learn how to do new things, deliver those crazy ideas in my head, even when things are not looking that great, surely even if slowly things fall into place.
Believe : Being so passionate about what you do, that it hurts, you feel the ideas and creativity burn. Nothing can stop you.